Jean's 宇宙記錄

I am quite cynical recently.

Partly because the stress of wanting something, and partly becuase, or say .. the main cause is that we have seen how dark jurisdical system is. so far, we are called the victim. Unless our case is justified with evidences and evidence, we are just one of those victims that whose cases were not resolved with fairness. Side note, as the judge said to us as we are confused with all the misleading procedures: however evidence is important, procedure is also important. Self remedy is your own option! FCUK, but expenses are from your own pocket too.

Another case, I might use the stinger's mind to evaluate another's minor mistake, which is just little amount of change.

I am a bit anxious, i know. as the qualification test is around the corner while i still cannot manage to make words come as fast as possible...... even worse, do i understand what i heard????? if that gets wrong, the rest would be misleading output.

LISTENING, is more than what I thought.

Therefore, I am kinda stressed. the muscles around my neck are now tighten again. I felt the pain when I fell asleep on the commuting trip. As I have learned the relationship between angry and the pain around my neck muscles, I got angry in the ngiht dream. (as i woke up, the dream was still sharp but after 2 hours of "nap" it is gone again....) i had a quarrel with my sister...

Lately I often have dreams. Unlike the blood red eyes one, this time it involves E,A, and O.

We are in E's I-House. And we are playing a "global mapping" game. On the world map, there are several cities marked. What we do is to name a city and use a special kind of device to see whether it is our own image in this place (person+place=photo) E made some efforts to make our image photos become transparent so that we have to utilize this device to find things out.

When it is my turn, I picked Sydney, Australia. In the dream me, I am thinking it is where E has been to, but I haven't yet.... let's see if I am here. And I find E scanned the photo I used for international student card (with a purple shirt). I remember my own image much more than the place. But I am in my choice.

100724

我在搖滾核心區﹗﹗（另一個 in the flow 的經驗﹗）

100722

Guess it is not a good idea to watch TV programs without lights/ on the bus. The lights are really irritating that makes my eyes drier. so that that night, I dreamt of wearning my contacts.... after I took them off and found the next morning that my eyes capillary blood vessels were swollen that really scared me. Though I didnt feel much pain in the dream.

Take good care, i think my eyes are communicating with my by sending the message through the dreams. i love my eyes.

I often felt mad in the dreams recently, no matter I sit during commute  or lay down on my bed. I think that is because of the neck problem. Angers, I hope through these dreams, both mentally and physically I can feel better. Gradually...

There are more than one dream last night, one is about a trip to Palestine. At that beginning, I only know the flight route: from asia to america and then.... i got to know it is palestine. How interesting, the crossroad of time and space. Well, maybe i should drop a line to my israeli friends....

In short: when you understand the alternative, it's far easier to not only measure your work, but value it.

簡言之，當你有了選擇，工作的價值變得更容易衡量了。

好熱血啊⋯慢了全世界一步熱血，要不是這些鼓舞人心的音樂起了聳動的的作用⋯

發自肺腑的真激賞，總是會上達天聽。或許出現得不是那麼立即，但是每每它的出現只能再再地叫我感到神奇。

我想找個書法老師。因為曾經受過好的老師指導，明白自己的需要，拜師學藝一事，我很謹慎。老師其實不少啊，除了看看老師們的墨寶和字帖收藏外以及實際地去上幾堂課外，基本上沒有什麼其他的方法可以評量了。

巧的是，我就這麼地遇見了。一開始，聽她分享買筆的心得，後來知道她也在授課。與我的進修地相去不遠，時間也能配合外，她大喇喇像男人的個性、感覺和我有點對拍的急性子、說話幽默，在授課心得上她說每個人的個性不同，所選的筆也有所不同（很有道理啊！）等等⋯我就上課去了。上課時看她寫字好似筆與人合體了般的行雲流水，展現出力與美。這證明我的直覺對了！

100629  好辛苦喔，精神可佳⋯在凌晨回家時的鼓勵／夢話 

100618 人類說要拯救地球，但事實是，地球不會毀滅，毀滅的是人類自己! 當頭棒喝啊！！

到过台湾的人都知道，和其他华人社会比较起来，台湾民众相对更为善良、温暖、开朗、易于相处、愿意助人、容易相信别人，但大家也别忽略了台湾人的善良在某种程度上还是有选择性、阶级性的，许多人对西方人是一套标准，但对来自印尼、菲律宾、中国大陆、越南的外籍劳工或配偶却又是一套标准。  （嗯⋯）